So a little background as promised
I guess I've always been submissive, at least as far back as I can remember, the idea has always intrigued me. I assume it can be traced back to my older next door neighbour when I was young. She was always taking charge and telling me what to do, and I must say that I remember enjoying doing what she said. I guess that's also where the start of my fantasies of being humiliated started as well., whilst there was nothing sexual (we were way too young) she enjoyed getting me to do things that humiliated me, and that feeling seems to have stuck with me throughout my life.
Growing up I was always interested in the "kinkier" sides of sex, as a teenager books of a sexual nature became available, the part that sticks in my mind is of a naked woman being covered in eggs and having her picture taken in a studio and the heat from the lights began cooking the eggs. The thought of her laying there with the slimy egg juice all over her really excited me and then the idea of the textures changing in the heat.... well those thoughts excite me now as much as they did then.
I was never any good with the ladies (lol) so I had no chance to explore these feelings with anyone else, as I got older I discovered masturbation and managed to get my "kinky" kicks by imagining I was being ordered to do things, one game I remember playing a lot. On the way home from nightclubs (after many drinks) I would play this game, the rules were simple, as I walked down the street I had to get from 1 street lamp to the next before a car passed, I wasn't allowed to speed up or slow down just walk along at the same pace, if I failed then I would have to unzip my fly, then the game carried on again to the next street lamp, if I made it then I could zip up otherwise I would have to take my cock out and carry on again. Once out if I failed again I had to start stroking (whilst walking), this game could go on for quite some time depending in traffic and the distance between lights so it hit all my buttons, submissive, humiliation, denial, great fun, and the game could be changed depending on my moods as well. Obviously a dangerous game to play and I wouldn't recommend it to anyone, I was lucky and never actually got caught.
Read a comment you posted on Mr. SH's blog and found your blog. I'll give it a read for awhile and see where your journey ends. I don't know where your life of submission to your wife is headed but if you want to read a male blog from the perspective of a service submission, I invite you to read what I've written. You know, that what is to become of you is really the choice of your wife. As a true submissive, you agree to obey her and in doing so, your life will go, in large measure where she wants to take the two of you.
ReplyDeleteI love knowing that another man has found his calling and has opened his thoughts to the wife he desires to lead their relationship. I wish you well.
Hi IH
ReplyDeleteThank you for your comment and I hope you find the blog interesting, it's the first time I've tried anything like this so I apologise if it's rambling.
I will definately take a look at your blog it sounds very interesting.
Absolutely it is up to my wife, we had a nice talk about it the other day and we are becoming more and more comfortable.
I quite agree, it is a very scary time opening yourself up like that but well worth it, reading about others that have been there and how they did it and what happened after is a great comfort to me. I wish you all the best as well
Slavetubs, I remember when I was where you are now. I didn't know how to act around Katie. I thought I needed to wear less, not look her in the eye, call her ma'am, etc. What she really wanted was for me to be the same guy she fell in love with, just now, only willing to serve her and do as she said rather than live in a 50/50 relationship as we had been. I don't how you relate now that you've submitted but I would dare bet that your wife doesn't want you changing your personality to be something you aren't. You can't live a lie, if you know what I mean. If I could recommend something it is for you to be you. and for her to be her. and for you to learn to listen and obey and do as you are told. I think you will find your relationship deepen to depths you have never seen before. Have fun and enjoy the journey!
ReplyDeleteIH, that is exactly how I am feeling, and my wife is the same as Katie, she wants everything to be "normal" just with me serving her and making her the centre of my life. We are just scratching the surface here but it seems to be great, we are both much happier and having far less arguments.
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