Background

So a little background as promised

I guess I've always been submissive, at least as far back as I can remember, the idea has always intrigued me. I assume it can be traced back to my older next door neighbour when I was young. She was always taking charge and telling me what to do, and I must say that I remember enjoying doing what she said. I guess that's also where the start of my fantasies of being humiliated started as well., whilst there was nothing sexual (we were way too young) she enjoyed getting me to do things that humiliated me, and that feeling seems to have stuck with me throughout my life.

Growing up I was always interested in the "kinkier" sides of sex, as a teenager books of a sexual nature became available, the part that sticks in my mind is of a naked woman being covered in eggs and having her picture taken in a studio and the heat from the lights began cooking the eggs. The thought of her laying there with the slimy egg juice all over her really excited me and then the idea of the textures changing in the heat.... well those thoughts excite me now as much as they did then.

I was never any good with the ladies (lol) so I had no chance to explore these feelings with anyone else, as I got older I discovered masturbation and managed to get my "kinky" kicks by imagining I was being ordered to do things, one game I remember playing a lot. On the way home from nightclubs (after many drinks) I would play this game, the rules were simple, as I walked down the street I had to get from 1 street lamp to the next before a car passed, I wasn't allowed to speed up or slow down just walk along at the same pace, if I failed then I would have to unzip my fly, then the game carried on again to the next street lamp, if I made it then I could zip up otherwise I would have to take my cock out and carry on again. Once out if I failed again I had to start stroking (whilst walking), this game could go on for quite some time depending in traffic and the distance between lights so it hit all my buttons, submissive, humiliation, denial, great fun, and the game could be changed depending on my moods as well. Obviously a dangerous game to play and I wouldn't recommend it to anyone, I was lucky and never actually got caught.

New Blog

Hi there.

I've been reading blogs about submissive husbands for a while now, I've found them interesting, arousing, informative and incredibly helpful. I decided to start my own blog for 2 reasons; first, for other people to read and hopefully enjoy, and secondly, and most importantly, to help me organise my thoughts and frustrations, my hope is that this will enable me to explore my feelings properly and to hopefully help me in the future.

My posts will probably be short and infrequent but I'm hoping that in putting my thoughts down in words it will help me work through them.

Please feel free to post comments, I look forward to chatting with like minded people.

Well that's the intro done and the blog is now out there so to speak, will post soon with some background about my relationship with my wonderful wife